A letter from God

Dear Child,

Where has your trust gone? I see it is not only Me that you have forgotten how to trust; it is yourself too. So let me remind you.

Trust may be a short word but it is a strong one; strong enough to carry the weight of our connection, strong enough to carry our voices to each other. Trust is the bridge that allows Me to approach you. It is the bridge you learn to give your weight to. To trust means to give yourself over without restraint. Trust requires of us to be generous with ourselves. It invites us to let go of that which our minds cannot — doubt. It asks us to surrender our need for knowing, to reign in our judgements and to stand free and bare of all that is logical. 

Naive are they who forego the magic of trust for reason. Naive are they who think their minds can be convinced to trust. It is only the heart that can trust because it is only the heart that can feel that which thoughts cannot. Only the heart can know the unknown. Only the heart can hold the Self whole so only the heart can hand it all over. 

So my child, it is of no use at all to prepare yourself for the unknown by any intellectual means. It is only the heart that can face the unknown and only in the heart can those battles be won. Battles not against the unknown, but those against your Self. For it is there, in your heart, that your Self hides, it is there too that it fights, because it is only there that it can survive. So my dear child, go to your heart. Go to see your Self. For only there can all fighting end. By leaving your heart, you have abandoned your Self and it is that abandonment that has sent your Self rogue. It is that abandonment of your heart that started the war between you and your Self. It is there too in your heart that peace shall be found. So go, go to your heart. It is not a futile endeavor. It is the most courageous of all the missions of this life. For to go back to face one’s Self from long ago is to go back home. It is to reunite again with that which you have been so deeply longing for. It is to reconcile with the Whole. It is to return to Me. To return to Love. And what else is this life for but to return to Love. So trust Me and hand your Self over to Me. Trust Me and let me carry you so that your arms can finally rest. I can carry you much easier than you can carry yourself so let me do what I am meant to do — support you. I cannot force you to trust me. It is always your choice to let me in or shut me out. All I can do is show you the way, but it is you that must walk it. So if you want to trust me, you must choose to. You must feel it in your heart. It must be your will to trust me, not mine. But I encourage you to trust because trust, my dear child, is the only way to love. Trust is the key that opens the gates to our hearts. It is the key to all of life and love. Trust me. Open your heart to me. I am Love and I come knocking on your door. I sincerely hope you do let me in.

Always here but only if you want me to be,

God.

Reconnecting to Your Childhood is Important.

Dear quarter lives,

This is a kind reminder that we in fact never grow out of our childhood. We mature in voice, we grow new teeth, but we do not grow new primary experiences of life. Perhaps this is why childhood remains a significant part of our memories and our present-day reactions to the world. It is how we first received the world, how we were first welcomed by it or terrified by it, it is our introduction into life, and so as all first impressions, it counts a great deal.

Remorse, do not have for your child self. It is an emotion laced with guilt. Steer away from guilt, for it is one laced in fear. And fear is laced in darkness, so do not scare your children, they are still alive and care not for your guilt but would much rather be held out in the light – the bright light of love. It is there that all children thrive, it is there that they would like to live, so take them to love and away from the pains of nostalgia, away from all the memories that happened and the ones that never did. It is dangerous to live in a past that no longer is, a past that cannot be changed but one that hopes so badly it could. A past cannot be different than what it was. It cannot be anything except what it is. As adults with children in pain living inside of us, we fall into this trap when we remember the past, we cannot accept it for what it was, and in turn reject the present for what it is, in hopes to move to a future that cannot be. But what we fail to realise is that when we reject our past, we reject our child self too along with it, we reject their truth, we refuse to recognise them for who they really are. It is us you see that inflict pain on our child selves, it is our rejection that leaves them feeling ashamed, it is our abandonment that leaves them feeling like they are alone in this world. But children you see are most forgiving so let them teach you how to forgive them. They will embrace you with all the love they have if you just allow them to. They too can guide you back to yourself, but only if you trust them. And trust the children we must.

Children are seekers of the light, they are drawn to love and always move towards it so have faith that your child knows the way, they might be your only way back home. Do not burden yourself O adult with the hows, whys and what ifs. Let go of your need to lead the way. Let go of the idea that the adult is supposed to know the way. It is often our inner children that are best suited for leading these journeys. Our adult beings are too tainted by a material reality they have come to believe is real, so they cannot walk past it, they cannot let it go. And to go back home one must be prepared to let go of many attachments including that with reality herself. We must walk through reality, not become it. Unfortunately, most adults have become the reality they have lived in for so long, they have become the identities and labels they were given only as glasses to experience the world through, but instead these glasses stayed on their faces for too long, and they forgot they were even wearing them. Now confused that their glasses are their eyes, they are so afraid to let go of them because they think they are sacrificing their eyes.

If one is to return to being the camera man rather than the camera itself, one needs to reconnect to their child self to find that faith again to trust. Trust allows us to hand over our reigns of control. To give in our power. Trust allows us to accept our lack of knowledge. And who better to teach us about trust and navigating through the unknown than children who are born to people they know nothing of yet they trust these people with all their hearts to love them and keep them safe. So dearest quarter lives, reconnect with your child selves, it might be the most valuable thing you do for yourself. And remember it is like approaching any child, you must smile, be kind and ready to play a little.

Love,

S.A.

Impossible is just a belief

Dear quarter lives,

If I told you to walk forever, would you? If I told you to sit still forever, would you? If I told you to walk while sitting still forever, how could you? Impossible, right? It is all possible, but only if you believe it is. It is only by discarding what we know to be true do we find truth. I have tried to walk, and failed. I have tried to sit still, and failed. I have found a way to do both simultaneously, but only because I have failed first. It is only in finding a way to walk after I had been sitting, and sitting after I had been walking that it came together. My way will not be yours. My failure won’t be like yours. But what is true for all of us is that we must unlearn what is impossible, for it is all possible, only if we choose it to be. It is in being generous with our faith that we can bring the impossible into the realm of the possible. You see when we believe in the impossible, it softens and embraces us into its world and suddenly what was impossible is now part of our experience and has become possible. It is only in discarding what we were told to be the boundaries of where we can exist, where we can wander, and what we can wonder about, that we find the impossible to hold true. So question the rules, wonder always for that is the only way to wander, and it is only though wandering that we stumble, that we stand up again, that we find our bearings, and our path home. There is no true north for all. Mine will be different to yours and yours will be unlike any other. The question that follows is how does one not lose themselves to the infinite space of the impossible. How does the mind survive the absurd? And to that I will say, it is all about trust. 

You must trust yourself. You must trust that there is a part of you that knows all. A part of you that is all-knowing, all-perceiving, omnipresent. Some call it God. Others refer to it as Higher Self. Regardless of what we like to call it, we must learn to trust that part of ourselves. But it is difficult to trust that which we do not communicate with. How can you be guided by a voice that you cannot hear? And so, we must first learn to listen before we can be guided by our own wisdom. We must find the direct line that connects us to our Source and strengthen this line until the voice of our inner wisdom becomes clear and accessible to us anywhere and at anytime. And that is why we learn to sit still forever first before we can walk. And there isn’t a single universal way to sit still. Each one of us will have their own way to sit. And because there isn’t a guidebook on how exactly to find our own way of sitting, we must keep on trying and failing and trying again and failing once more and trying again until we find our unique seated position. For me, writing is a way I can sit still. For another, it could be boxing. For a third, it could be singing. Find your own way of sitting still. Wonder about sitting, be curious about it and you will find your way to navigate through its stillness. When you can finally sit still, once you have learnt to listen to your inner wisdom, you may now begin to walk. What walking does is allow you to practice being guided by your inner voice, letting it lead you right, left, straight ahead or even to stop when necessary. It is the walking which allows for trust to form between you and your inner voice. And it is through falling many times that you will learn the language of your voice. You will learn to decipher its codes and comprehend its alarms. It is that which lays the foundation for the trust you will need when you break free of all boundaries of the possible and into the vast universe of the impossible. It is that listening and that trust that will allow you to walk while sitting. It is only when we deeply trust ourselves that we give it permission to do the impossible. Trust, also known as Faith, is how we survive journeying in the unknown. And what is more unknown than the unfolding of our lives. So you see, it is for the sake of the quality of our journey that we choose to believe in the impossible; otherwise, it becomes a really rough journey full of frustration and longing because we chose to believe in a life of limitation, a life where only “possible” things happened, a life where no magic existed and no surprises swept us off our feet. Some might call this a safe journey, I would more accurately describe it as a soul-crushing one. So let go of your fear and choose trust instead. Choose the wild journey, believe in magic and the impossible will become your world. Trust that your safety is always with you. All you need to do is connect with it. It is that connection that will always bring you back safely to yourself and not your fear for yourself. So dear quarter lives, let the wondering teach you how to best wander for you. Listen to no authority but your own. Find no language other than your own to speak for you and lay down a path on which only you can walk until you wander all the way back home.

Love,

S.A.